So the topic for today: Should People With Eating Disorders Try To Lose Weight?
Now this stems from my own personal circumstances that are currently happening- I weighed myself…oh so much drama, and then I explained a little more (in a less dramatic way) and mentioned somewhere in there that’d I’d like to lose 7ish kgs. Some of you may be worried, relieved (hay it could happen), against it or totally for it etc. Let me say I’m being rational with the ultimate goal number here- rewind many many months and I was quite a bit less than that, but then again I was without my beloved lifting and muscle mass too I guess.
Lift them heavy things
Anyways, this post obviously should not be taken as medical advice or the say all and end all. It’s really just me rambling my thoughts. It’s also going to be quite subjective because I think if you’re dealing with an ED right now, as in- you’re in the heat of it, I think that’s your number one focus. Even if you’ve just jumped on the recovery bandwagon I’m going to say focus on your mental health and whatever physical health that may or may not need adjusting can be done so later. I guess I’m aiming it at people whose ED is a hazy past (like honestly, I remember so little from that time, although there still are some very vivid memories), who have been working on ME (well you) and all the mental stuff that goes along with it. For instance, let’s say for argument sake someone in a similar situation to me [although everyone's situations will be very different in a way].
I’ve worked very hard for recovery. I will always have food issues, but I don’t reckon I’ll always have a full blown ED. I’ve seen a therapist, done the time and put in the effort, revamped my eating (aka: eaten a whole lot more), dealt with binges, overcame binges, relaxed and ate something oh so yummy etc etc.
And now, after weighing myself I feel like I need to lose some weight. Now, even before that I was slightly uncomfortable in my body. Clothes didn’t fit ideally and I felt slightly bigger than I was used to. The scale number was sort of a kick in the bum- saying: either commit or don’t but choose something.
A very trusted and dear friend of mine seems a bit worried, saying that I am happy with my body so why let the number get to me. And I think that’s a reallyreally important point. YES, I am happy with my body most of the time (actually AT PEACE with my body is a much better term I think) and I think that’s why it’s okay that I take a different turn on my health and fitness journey. I’m not doing it because I hate myself nor am I doing it so I’ll be happier. I am doing it because I want to, I guess?
I think that’s a really important point- my mentality is so so different. And I think if someone with a past record of ED has a big shift in mentality then I think it’s okay. That’s not to say I won’t be treading lightly. Very minimal alterations have been made and I am taking it slow, and keeping an eye on myself. I’m sure it’d be easy to slip into old patterns during a brief moment of weakness but that’s why I will be diligent with myself.
I’m also dealing with the whole ‘I weighed myself’ really well. Weighing myself was like the top goal I had in therapy, it was pretty much the thing that gave me the most anxiety. Whilst the number isn’t my favourite I don’t hate myself for it. I do care, but not enough that it’s ruined anything in my life. I sort of feel like a whole heap of scale anxiety has just been released to the sky. [side note: I'm going to the Dr Thursday and there is no way I will let him weigh me and see the scale- he has little compassion and will probably make the situation slightly worse].
Anyways, what’s your thoughts:
Should people with Eating Disorders Try To Lose Weight?