It’s been a big day of studying around here. But don’t be too impressed…I was this close to not even bothering. Once I started I realised it wasn’t too bad, but it didn’t take much for me to stop and have lunch.
Lunch was a simple whole-wheat wrap with a chopped up vegie pattie, low-fat cheese and mushrooms. I toasted it to get it warm and melt the cheese. Seriously- melted cheese is where it’s at.
I also had a weight workout and CXWORX class this morning. Both were awesome and my weights workout was a bit different today because I sort of restarted my weight training program.
Okay… this is ugh not easy for me to share. And I honestly feel so ashamed typing it, but I want to be honest with you guys and hopefully in the long run you can offer me some help? [Prepare for thoughts to come from every which way].
I started a new weights program because my jeans would not go over my quads and ass.
I haven’t worn my jeans since June last year (before the binges got really bad and I started seeing a Therapist). They were pretty unforgiving then also- as in, if I couldn’t go to a buffet wearing them ha.
But they were and still are my size. I don’t know if the brand makes any difference but they were Lees, so I’m trying to rationalise that perhaps they are smaller makes. To test the theory, I went to the store the next day to try on a pair of jeans the exact same size but in a different brand to see whether they’d fit. Fortunately they did or I’d say I’d probably have made an embarrassing scene at the store.
From that I’m gathering that these others jeans (that we will never mention again ha) were a small make. But realising that didn’t stop me from breaking down and totally ramming on myself. Oh what a blow right. Whether they were a small make or not it was just another reminder that I am larger than I was in June last year. Now last year in June (from what I can remember) I wasn’t an unhealthy skinny weight (I could be wrong though)- so this is different from my other jeans incident.
But the thing is that it totally come out from left field. I was not prepared for that.
Since I don’t weigh myself or any of that stuff at the moment I can’t say for sure why my jeans don’t fit. My bf is adamant that it’s because my muscles are grown. Being a total sweetheart and saying ‘Bek, how many squats and weights have you done since June last year’. Oh, naive one.
Regardless, the point is I’m bigger. Whether it be muscle or fat, and I’m hoping it’s the former, I would prefer it not be there.
In a bid to not totally hate on myself I decided to research into reps for weight training (after doing some desperate googling for a magical answer), and apparently the reps I were doing were ideal for building muscle size. I was doing generally 8-12 reps and anywhere from 3-5 sets. [Please correct me if I'm wrong].
Since then I’ve taken on the Starting Strength recommendations to stick to 5 reps for 3 sets. This was also backed up by a recent article I read on Nerd Fitness that said the same things about reps and results.
Why not just look into my diet and cardio choices? Because it’s depressing to do so. I’m already eating healthy- and I’ll admit sometimes I struggle to find the balance and I end up ‘too healthy‘- and I’m teaching and attending exercise classes anywhere from 1.5-3 hours a day (including weight training 3 times a week).
If I put it down to the fact that I’ve gotten fatter or whatever than I feel helpless. I’m already doing SO much, what more is there for me to do?
Hopefully my little whinge can come off as a cry for help and someone can enlighten me to whether or not I’m making the right choice to change my weight program. I will say that although it’s my first day- knocking back the reps and starting over with lighter weights has already seen my range increase (in squats especially- finally!) and my form improve.
But if you make me choose between fitting my clothes and weight training, I’d hate to imagine what I’d end up picking…
Ps. I’m having conflicting thoughts. Isn’t weight training suppose to make you gain weight but look smaller (i.e fit your clothes!). But then I also think (and the bf argues) weight training can also make your muscles grow larger (i.e take a look at guys and girls who are not lean and muscular but rather big and muscular- still looking good mind you, but just not the look I wish to reach for). I guess th
- Help a girl out?
- Should I keep or throw out the jeans?
- Do I sound like a crazy person…?