Being Hungry Is a Scary Thing

Hey guys, I know things have been pretty BodyAttack-ish lately what with my Module Training on the weekend and my review of Release 79 this morning, but I promise I’ll try and balance things out a bit. You can’t blame me though, it’s like this crazy thing that spreads all over you- haha that sounded odd but you get me.

How is your Tuesday? It’s still raining and miserable here, and to top it off I’ve got uni this afternoon. The rain, my lack of motivation and the apparent ridiculous situation in our uni carpark has got me dreading the trip…oh not to mention it’s a round trip of 80km and $16 of tolls… Must remind self- only one more year.

Anyways apart from a sweaty lower body weight session this morning and a CXWORX class I’ve been eating, organising this and that on the computer and cleaning the kitchen. Oh and I finally made friends with my foam roller again.

Being Hungry Is a Scary Thing

My crazy nine hour days for training left me with quite an appetite on Monday- I didn’t eat all that much Saturday and Sunday (we were constantly moving and working out so couldn’t do that on a full belly, plus I wasn’t overly famished those nights) so I think it all caught up with me yesterday. And even a little bit today.

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You know what I’ve realised? I’m terrified of being hungry, especially when it’s that hunger that just seems insatiable- or the one that seems satisfied after a snack and twenty minutes later is crying for more.

Why am I scared, I don’t really know. Maybe because I’ve had a past of depriving myself and eating more means more calories. Maybe it’s because I’m scared the hunger will never stop and it will get out of control. Maybe it’s purely because I still have trust issues with my body to deal with.

Or maybe it’s a combination of a bazillion different reasons. But in all honesty, I don’t think I’m alone in this.

I get into a situation where I’m hungry and instead of just eating, I over think everything.

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I just ate but? Will I ever not be hungry? Does this make me greedy? Am I actually hungry? What will I eat? What if I make an unhealthy choice? What if someone judges me? Will it make me gain weight?

Ugh I don’t want to be scared of such a stupid thing- something that’s crucial to everyday functioning and living!

I don’t know what I can do to take away this anxiety around being hungry, hmm. I will talk to my therapist about it on Thursday and report back.

  • Any tips for dealing with hunger anxiety?
  • Do you get anxious about something ‘silly’ like this?

7 comments

  1. Michelle says:

    I think intense hunger can be a sign we’re not giving our bodies enough of what they require – whether that’s fat, protein – or simply these things in higher quantities. Basically I think intense, powerful feelings of hunger are an urgent signal the body needs something it’s not getting!

    On the other hand, mild-moderate hunger can be a good opportunity to question what you need right now. As long as you can overcome the panic (and this might take time) you can delve deeper and question if you need salty or savory, cool or warmed, fresh and crisp or soft and doughy etc and in what quantities.

    Keep us posted how you go discussing it :)
    X Michelle

    • BekatCrave says:

      That’s so true! I know the rational explanations but can’t seem to believe them, it’s always great to hear it from someone else though :)
      I think the associated anxiety is worse than the actual hunger. I just felt like I was a bottomless pit for a while there- I guess that’s what 2 intense days of exercise will do to you- why am I such a drama queen? ha!
      Will do, thanks for your great advice (again!) x

  2. This is a great post. I agree with Michelle being hungry isn’t always a bad thing, it could be that your body needs nutrients. What you eat to satisfy that hunger makes a huge difference. Just like you I tend to over think things, something I promised myself I’ll learn how to control.
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    • BekatCrave says:

      Thanks Kathy :) I know and it’s a perfectly normal too, but for someone with disordered eating habits it’s a nightmare :(
      Hmm, it sucks hay! I’ve been eating the right foods but it took forever to be satisfied!

  3. okay, i like this post for a few reasons. i’ve had the same issues being ‘afraid’ of hunger and it’s hard to put into words that people understand, but u do it quite well. my big this is i’m terrified of going to bed hungry, i have to have a HUGE snack before bed or i’m certain…well, i don’t really know WHAT i’m afraid of, because i know i’ll eat again, but i still always feel this fear that ‘what if i go to bed hungry’.

    like the other commentors said it’s important to differentiate between hunger/starving but i just wanted to say that i totally understand this hunger fear thing. it’s tough to explain, but i get it!

    • BekatCrave says:

      Things like this are always hard to express aren’t they! Hmmm, how about this- one night don’t eat if you’re not hungry. What will happen? You wake up a little hungrier the next morning? Have a bigger breakfast. You wake up during the night- go back to sleep, but if you’re too hungry have a small snack to help you back off.

      I’ve never experienced the worry like that actually- going to bed hungry- it doesn’t worry me so much (but thank you for sharing because it’s really enlightening to see how many different eating/food issues we all have).

      Awesome :) We can get it together- and we can test it together too. I use to be much more scared of hunger but now I’ve learnt to listen to my body a little better- the fear comes up when I eat more than usual or am continually hungry.

      I think the fear of being hungry is very much that you don’t want to get yourself into a situation where u can lose control, or maybe you just don’t like the thought of eating? I know I’ve had both thoughts in the past (and maybe even in the present).

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