Hey guys, I know things have been pretty BodyAttack-ish lately what with my Module Training on the weekend and my review of Release 79 this morning, but I promise I’ll try and balance things out a bit. You can’t blame me though, it’s like this crazy thing that spreads all over you- haha that sounded odd but you get me.
How is your Tuesday? It’s still raining and miserable here, and to top it off I’ve got uni this afternoon. The rain, my lack of motivation and the apparent ridiculous situation in our uni carpark has got me dreading the trip…oh not to mention it’s a round trip of 80km and $16 of tolls… Must remind self- only one more year.
Anyways apart from a sweaty lower body weight session this morning and a CXWORX class I’ve been eating, organising this and that on the computer and cleaning the kitchen. Oh and I finally made friends with my foam roller again.
Being Hungry Is a Scary Thing
My crazy nine hour days for training left me with quite an appetite on Monday- I didn’t eat all that much Saturday and Sunday (we were constantly moving and working out so couldn’t do that on a full belly, plus I wasn’t overly famished those nights) so I think it all caught up with me yesterday. And even a little bit today.
You know what I’ve realised? I’m terrified of being hungry, especially when it’s that hunger that just seems insatiable- or the one that seems satisfied after a snack and twenty minutes later is crying for more.
Why am I scared, I don’t really know. Maybe because I’ve had a past of depriving myself and eating more means more calories. Maybe it’s because I’m scared the hunger will never stop and it will get out of control. Maybe it’s purely because I still have trust issues with my body to deal with.
Or maybe it’s a combination of a bazillion different reasons. But in all honesty, I don’t think I’m alone in this.
I get into a situation where I’m hungry and instead of just eating, I over think everything.
I just ate but? Will I ever not be hungry? Does this make me greedy? Am I actually hungry? What will I eat? What if I make an unhealthy choice? What if someone judges me? Will it make me gain weight?
Ugh I don’t want to be scared of such a stupid thing- something that’s crucial to everyday functioning and living!
I don’t know what I can do to take away this anxiety around being hungry, hmm. I will talk to my therapist about it on Thursday and report back.
- Any tips for dealing with hunger anxiety?
- Do you get anxious about something ‘silly’ like this?